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11 October 2015 @ 10:57 am
- I'm following way too many tv shows. I'm not sure how I'm going to keep this up. Sure, "following" is a slight exaggeration because even for the ones I like best, I watch the season premieres and can't remember how the last season ended, but still way too many tv shows.

- I finished posting Story of Faith three weeks ago, and I think that by now, I can ditch the self-nurtured-illusion/pretense that there are boatloads - or well, a tiny pinch - of people out there who were waiting for it to be totally posted before they read and comment on it. There is a reason why, even when it was fully ready to be posted last Summer, I held on to that k!?o&j fic a little longer; I had a feeling posting it was more or less pointless anyway. Maybe if I had managed to complete it about four years ago. Or maybe not. Probably not. Whatever. Just another way that k!?o&j damn show would have made me sad and blah. I had an idea for a companion piece but the chances (or risks depending on where one stands) that it happens are lolastic.

- I should try harder to LJ-ing. I should. Obviously, I don't. In my defense, I don't do... anything fannish anywhere else either. Despite the numerous aforementioned tv shows, none of them makes me fannish, it seems. Some of them make me feel like waiting for the weekend to enjoy them with a glass of wine, but that's not exactly the same, I guess ^__^ General weariness and blahness don't help either.

- I like Autumn. You wouldn't think so given my current mood, but I love Autumn ♥
Current Mood: blahblah
Maz (or foxxy!): Fangirls! Run!tuesdaeschild on October 15th, 2015 02:15 pm (UTC)
but I doubt their lives would have been changed if I hadn't posted the fic...

There are many things that don't change our lives but we still enjoy them anyway! You probably brought some pleasure to someone's day; is that such a bad thing? :)

No, you, watching dance shows? Unbelievable *g*

Yes, I know it's almost impossible to believe but yes; me, watching dance shows!! *giggles*
Clair de Lune: divers - so cuteclair_de_lune on October 16th, 2015 07:56 pm (UTC)
Not at all a bad thing. But what I meant here is that it wouldn't have made any difference for them (since they wouldn't have even known about the fic) while it does make a difference for me (since I, well, know about the fic). Not to mention that if this is about bringing pleasure to a couple of possible readers who wouldn't have been "hurt" in any way otherwise vs. me feeling sad and without closure, I'm going to put myself first. Maybe I'm silly and egocentric, but you of all people know how much this story mattered to me so... sorry, but not sorry ;)

Enjoy this week's show *hugs*
Maz (or foxxy!): Don't Fu...tuesdaeschild on October 17th, 2015 11:44 am (UTC)
Okay, I'm willing to concede that what people don't know about won't affect their lives in any way. And I don't blame you for putting yourself first; it's not silly or egocentric at all. Yes, of all people I do know how much this story mattered to you...but you did it, despite all the obstacles, and that in itself is an achievement that has to count for something. *hugs*

Right now I'm sitting here fuming with my neighbour...long story, but rather than bothering one of her daughters to come and pick up her husband from the hospital (she did say she would and it's only a matter of a couple of miles) she said they'd get a taxi. What could I do but offer? Trouble is my whole afternoon is fucked (when should I eat?!!) because it could be six o'clock before they know if he's coming home...and that might encroach on my show!! :( I will be recording though so yes, once I start watching it I'm sure I'll enjoy it! *hugs some more*

*does some more quiet fuming*
Clair de Lune: divers - hugclair_de_lune on October 17th, 2015 06:56 pm (UTC)
It counts for something. My rambling was never about whether I shoud or shouln't have written it, but about how (not) smart, it was to post it. Anyway, it's done *sighs*

That's nice of you. Urgh, I hate it when I have to sit all day long, waiting to know when I'll be called. I won't start doing anything in case I need to stop and I waste my day. I hope they called you early enough and you saved at least a part of your afternoon *hugs*
Maz (or foxxy!): Brotherly hugtuesdaeschild on October 18th, 2015 12:28 pm (UTC)
Okay, the dilemma about posting it was fair enough, although it seems some comments, maybe particularly the ones on ff.net, might have almost been worth it. But yes, it's done, at least. And there's still the extra new episodes to come so just maybe...I can't help being at least a little optimistic. :)

That's exactly how I feel; no point in starting anything in case I have to drop it and zoom off in the car. I didn't mind actually fetching them and bringing them home but it was after six o'clock when they phoned - not their fault as they had to wait for all the meds to arrive before they could leave - so my afternoon was entirely wasted and I got back ten minutes into my show. Oh well, there might be a little good Karma to come...