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16 July 2011 @ 12:04 am
Prison Break - Except When She Does  
Title: Except When She Does
Author: clair_de_lune
Fandom: Prison Break
Pairings: one-sided Sara/Sofia (Michael/Sara, Lincoln/Sofia)
Categories: Femslash, het
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: ~ 855
Summary: Maybe it’s not Sara that Sofia wants, but what Sara has. (Post-series, non-epilogue compliant)
Author’s Note: Written for Femslash Day 2011.


Many thanks to msgenevieve for the beta. Any remaining mistakes are mine.

She doesn’t fantasize about women – about Sara, specifically. Really, she doesn’t. From what she can see, she’s pretty sure Sara’s happy with Michael anyway; she is certainly happy with Lincoln, and she doesn’t fantasize about Sara.

Except when she does.

Shopping and working and dinners, days at the beach and nights of talking, arguing and laughing, and... So many occasions to watch and observe her. She moves through life with grace and a hint of gravitas Sofia can’t help envying. Maybe it’s not Sara that Sofia wants, but what Sara has. Maybe it’s because Gretchen and the Company took so much from the two of them – especially from Sara. They both have their scars and bad memories, but Sara seems to have found that quiet state of mind Sofia can’t quite reach, even with the support of Lincoln’s affection.

In the end, though? It doesn’t matter why she thinks about Sara. Same difference. Same heavy feeling in her belly, in her chest, at the small of her back. The reason doesn’t matter.

That’s one bad case of heroine worship, she thinks with what’s left of her sense of humor.



She gazes with fascination as Michael casually strokes Sara’s bare shoulder. It’s an instinctive gesture of reassurance that she’s here, he’s here too, and neither of them is going anywhere.



She thought – hoped – it was just an odd crush, one that would be short-lived. And it is indeed an odd crush, but not a short-lived one. Lincoln moving above her, inside of her, is the furthest feeling from Sara, how she would make love to her, but the images are vivid behind her eyelids. When she comes, she bites into Lincoln’s shoulder not to let out a name that would leave him wondering or questioning.



The way he looks at her, she has the sensation that LJ knows. But then, LJ ought to know about unrequited desire – more than once, she’s caught him watching her the way she probably watches Sara. He was glaringly obvious, and Sofia can only hope she doesn’t wear her heart on her sleeve in the same way.



It’s so, so clear what Sara and Michael have been doing when Sofia drops by their bungalow with Linc, Sofia can barely tear her eyes off them. Unmistakable glow, shiny eyes, flushed cheeks, and remaining scent of lust and pleasure that no shower can ever wash off entirely.

Sofia wants to light that same sparkle in her eyes, be the one who has her panting and writhing into the sheets or up against a wall.



As they laze on the warm sand at the beach, Lincoln watches her watching Sara, smirks and leers in a played-up way. He’s faking it to tease her; he doesn’t actually picture anything because Sara’s family, hence off limits. He pretends to imply something dirty that Sofia would never ever fancy, and doesn’t realize how close to home he’s hitting. Chalking up her lingering looks to curiosity and to some vain drive to compare her figure with Sara’s.

She plays along and rolls her eyes. He leans towards her, kisses her neck, and whispers into her ear that if Sara’s pretty – and by ‘pretty’, he means ‘hot’ – she’s not too ugly either.



Doctor Sara cleans and stitches the cut she indirectly inflicted on Sofia’s hand – all because Sofia was too distracted by Sara to pay attention to what she was doing with that knife. The smell of disinfectant mingles with scent of plain soap and warm skin, and her head spins. Sara’s kind eyes trail down her shoulders and neck where shivers prickle her skin, then move to her breasts with their stupidly hard nipples; the taut peaks are painfully visible through the thin fabric of her shirt.

“It’s going to be okay,” Sara says, and Sofia’s not sure, will never be sure if she’s talking of the small wound or if she’s finally noticed something.



Sara doesn’t kiss women. (She usually doesn’t kiss any men except Michael either, that said, but that’s not the point.)

Except when she does.

It’s midnight, right between two years, right under the mistletoe, and Sara’s high on a glee that drives her to kiss Michael, and Lincoln, and even Mahone. On the mouth. Mahone chuckles shortly with amusement and embarrassment, Michael squints, and Lincoln lets out a not entirely displeased ‘humph’ sound. Sofia would glare and protest at another woman kissing him, but she’s too busy wanting to be in Lincoln’s shoes. Until Sara kisses her too. It’s nothing like the mock and outrageous kiss she planted on Lincoln’s mouth – kissy lips and loud smack – but a soft, soft one with a hint of teeth grazing Sofia’s lower lip and a silky, sure contact.

Warmth and wetness surge and pool low in Sofia’s stomach, between her legs, so sharp it’s painful. She kisses Sara back.

One of the men catcalls but whatever.



With a nod of head and a smile, Sara shows her the armchair facing the couch. Grace and gravitas and poise; their knees almost touch once they’re seated and Sofia knows she’s screwed.

“Let’s talk,” Sara tells her.

-End-

--Comments are always welcome and enjoyed :)
 
 
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nrrrdy_grrrl on July 15th, 2011 11:12 pm (UTC)
Nice!
Clair de Lune: pb - sofiaclair_de_lune on July 16th, 2011 06:25 am (UTC)
Thank you :)
Genevieve: full circle by sez (not for sharingmsgenevieve on July 16th, 2011 08:35 am (UTC)
Oh, you posted it! :)

I just love how your brain works. Seriously. Wonderful, as usual.

P.S. Have sent you an email *coughs*
Clair de Lune: pb - sara4clair_de_lune on July 17th, 2011 09:11 am (UTC)
My brain works in twisted ways, but it has to if it wants to write femslash for Prison Break (at least, femslash not involving Gretchen), hasn't it? *g*
Thanks so much :)
Maz (or foxxy!): Ooops!tuesdaeschild on July 16th, 2011 12:15 pm (UTC)
Look! Me reading Femslash!

It's still not really my thing (maybe your Femslash is?) but you write it so well that I can believe this really could be part of the non-epilogue compliant universe we love so much.

And you actually made me appreciate that maybe Sofia is a more sympathetic character than I'd given her credit for, which is an impressive achievement. :)
Clair de Lune: pb - sara3clair_de_lune on July 17th, 2011 09:12 am (UTC)
*gasp* Sara has this kind of influence on people, I guess ;)

Sofia was a bit bland. I'd say they didn't have enough time to develop her character, but it took Jane two episodes (from S2, admittedly) to grab people's attention, so...

Thanks for giving it a chance, Foxy, and happy you liked it :)
Maz (or foxxy!): M and Stuesdaeschild on July 17th, 2011 12:14 pm (UTC)
Sara has this kind of influence on people

It seems she does. It's the fangirl inall of us that makes us crush on the lovely Sara. :)

I feel you could be right that the writers didn't give Sofia much chance to develop and while I agree that she was bland she could have been a lot better given some deecent plot. Jane was an entirely different character and yes, Season 2 probably allowed her to grab the fannish attention more. Plus it seems to have been her chemistry with Lincoln that attracted so many of us to the pairing. Linc/Vee was lovely but Jane was so much more his equal. What a shame nothing ever came of it. :(

Thanks for giving it a chance, Foxy

Until one tries something one should never say I don't like it, right? :)
Kate: Kind doctor Saraaleksboo on July 17th, 2011 05:55 pm (UTC)
Ооо yes, it was that that, I even thought when, that Sofia can envy Sarah)
I think, here there should be a continuation))
Maz (or foxxy!): Sara Loltuesdaeschild on July 18th, 2011 09:26 am (UTC)
Sofia could probably fit in well with the rest of us fangirls who have a girl-crush on Sara, don't you think? :)

There is certainly an open-end to it that make a follow-up possible!
Clair de Lune: pb - saraclair_de_lune on July 18th, 2011 05:15 pm (UTC)
There is certainly an open-end to it that make a follow-up possible!
Shush! It ends with Sara saying "Let's talk" but I don't have the slighest idea what she's going to say or do *g* Although I don't picture her telling Sofia she shares her affection in that way ;)
Maz (or foxxy!): Sara Loltuesdaeschild on July 18th, 2011 05:28 pm (UTC)
Sorry!! I believe you're probably right though and I can't honestly see Sara wanting anyone other than Michael. And Lincoln! ;)
Clair de Lune: pb - trio3clair_de_lune on July 18th, 2011 06:46 pm (UTC)
anyone other than Michael. And Lincoln! ;)
It goes without saying *g* It's odd how I never mention Sofia in the OT3 stories, huh? Poor Sofia is a bit of a convenience when I need her in post-series Michael/Sara fics, but as soon as I add Lincoln to the mix, she mysteriously vanishes!
Maz (or foxxy!): let me be hottuesdaeschild on July 19th, 2011 12:05 pm (UTC)
Poor Sofia is a bit of a convenience when I need her in post-series Michael/Sara fics, but as soon as I add Lincoln to the mix, she mysteriously vanishes!

The poor girl must feel terribly used! I can't help wondering if Jane would get the same treatment!! Suddenly I just had an image flash through my mind - Jane pushing half-naked Michael onto a bed...it's a pairing I've never read before!!
Clair de Lune: pb - janeclair_de_lune on July 19th, 2011 06:31 pm (UTC)
I wondered too when replying to your comment, and I don't think even Jane would have derailed me from my OT3 obsession. I've come to like Sara/Lincoln in itself, but initially, the OT3 thing was because Michael I couldn't choose between Michael/Sara and Michael/Lincoln. OT3 was the perfect solution *g* I like Jane - a lot more than I like Sofia - and Lincoln/Jane, but that can't compete with my OTPs. And I don't like her enough to go as far as switching to a foursome, I have my limits :-p

LOL. Long ago, I briefly fancied the idea of writing a Michael/Jane PWP (or maybe it was a Michael/Jane/Lincoln or Michael/Sara/Jane one...) but that bunny ran away.
Maz (or foxxy!): Prettytuesdaeschild on July 19th, 2011 06:51 pm (UTC)
I've come to like Sara/Lincoln in itself, but initially, the OT3 thing was because Michael I couldn't choose between Michael/Sara and Michael/Lincoln.

I know you've never heard me complain! I definitely get Sara/Lincoln and certainly Lincoln/Jane...but I agree that OT4 is definitely off the menu! Poor Michael would probably be even more neglected!! ;)

I briefly fancied the idea of writing a Michael/Jane PWP (or maybe it was a Michael/Jane/Lincoln or Michael/Sara/Jane one...)

Knowing you it was probably one or both of the 3somes! ;) But I do fancy the idea of Michael/Jane a lot! Pity you didn't run after the bunny!! *g*
Clair de Lune: pb - trio3clair_de_lune on July 22nd, 2011 06:39 pm (UTC)
Poor Michael would probably be even more neglected!! ;)

Except if the three of them focus on him.

I agree that OT4 is definitely off the menu!

Maybe it would be fun to write (and read) as a PWP but I... *shrugs* There are more or less direct ties between Michael, Lincoln and Sara that make the OT3 possible/interesting/whatever (at least for me), but otherwise... PWP maybe but that's it. Not that PWP is a bad thing *g* but since bunnies are scarce and elusive, I'd rather write something I really want to write.
Maz (or foxxy!): Moody Wenttuesdaeschild on July 23rd, 2011 12:24 pm (UTC)
Except if the three of them focus on him.

That would make him feel loved! :)

...There are more or less direct ties between Michael, Lincoln and Sara that make the OT3 possible/interesting/whatever (at least for me)...PWP maybe but that's it...since bunnies are scarce and elusive, I'd rather write something I really want to write.

Yes, there is always a place for PWP but catching the darn bunnies is harder work these days than it used to be...makes sense. :)
Clair de Lune: pb - sofiaclair_de_lune on July 18th, 2011 05:08 pm (UTC)
A follow-up would definitely be possibe, if only to write their conversation. The only thing is... I don't know how Sara is going to handle the situation :-p
Thanks a lot for reading and commenting :)
The depressed optimist: PB - TIP: always act blondelizparker6 on August 15th, 2011 09:04 am (UTC)
Hah! I love this. Sure to say, seeing Sara being to object of someones interest is nice, because frankly, who WOULDNT fall in love with her?

I love how she stick with Michael though.;) And having Sofia have a crush on her is SO SOOOOO much better than having Lincoln being secretly in love with her, lol. Maybe its because it feels less 'threatening' in a way, or because indeed, Sofia isnt family, like Lincoln. To Sofia, Sara doesnt, in my eyes, have to be 'off-limits' like she should be to Lincoln..I am sure you get what I mean.

That said, this is a wonderful piece and I enjoyed it very very much, the ending in particular. She is a smart girl, Sara, isnt she? ;)
Clair de Lune: pb - sara4clair_de_lune on August 15th, 2011 09:04 pm (UTC)
I certainly still have a fangirl crush on her, so I can easily picture people falling for her ;)

Maybe its because it feels less 'threatening' in a way

*gasp* You little Michael/Sara shipper! Could it be because Sofia's interest isn't reciprocated? ;) At least, it doesn't seem to be: I left the ending open, after all - although to be honest, in my mind, Sara wants to talk about a way to deal with the situation, not to tell Sofia that she feels the same. Um. Unrequited love written for Femslash Day... Maybe it wasn't the best idea!

But to be a bit more serious, yes, I know what you mean and I agree: Sofia is not as "too close for comfort" as Lincoln can be.

I'm happy you liked it!
The depressed optimist: PB - Scylla Kisslizparker6 on August 15th, 2011 09:21 pm (UTC)
*gasp* You little Michael/Sara shipper! Could it be because Sofia's interest isn't reciprocated? ;)

*busted*

*sheepish grin* I know, I am THAT obvious, huh? ;)